Post new year post

This is the first post of the year and i am already 18 days snailing late. Well that's nothing at all abnormal. That is the reason why my family and friends called me an impulsive procrastinator. As i study in an engineering college so i am not busy at all but saying it otherwise i am busy a ton with loads of work pending, sleep deprived i am, many movies i wish to watch, then playing games and quizzes and health issues too...

First of all happy new year and happy bihu to all of you. I wish that this year brings you all that you aspired and did not got in ancestor years. Well my year started with a kick off new year and bihu celebrations in college premises. I enjoyed so much there that finally due to tiredness and sudden climate change I got severe cold and fever. Still suffering :((

In a quick peek if a say, last year was a tumultuous one for me, a year that i will remember forever. It was the year where i laughed the most, i cried the most, i lost in huge and again what i gain was no less too. I lost one of my closest friend. I have always received bluff by being too good to others. All my mind does say that i was misunderstood but internally i know well that i was not, it was you who was rude and  never understood me. Before i was cheerful, i wasn't so dumb. But from that day my life has changed, i have become so numb. But one sec... just for a girl i cant make my life null and hell all above. So it was the bad chapter of my life and i want to flush it out of mind forever. Now let me recollect some good memories....   Its the year when i got the chance to study in NITS. The journey was  knee jerking nonethless it was damn memorable. I met a lot of people here, made new friends and obviously met some old friends. Revived old days again. I got to know people from different states and various culture. So overall it was a year of twist and turns and finally i made it and happily the year 2k14 ended...

Now before i ramble this and that, let me spill my set of resolutions for this year. As everyone has their share of flaws and person who overcome this is winner at the end. So following are my set of resolution for the coming year...

1. Learn at least one new language.
2. Read as many novels and watch as many movies as i can.
3. Become a better time manager.

4. Accomplish the incomplete.

5. Learn coding completely.

6. De-clutter and accumulated junk.

7. Unleash the better and productive part of me.

8. More sorry and more thank you.

9. Reconnect with estranged friends and family

10. Most importantly spend time with myself...

Well that's all for the coming 340 days. I hope that i abide by them.....

is this INDIA???? HOPE NOT SO FOR COMING YEAR

It is carrying the virtue of SURRENDER  That ignites the FIRE in us.. That stimulates our RECEPTIVITY & SINCERITY  To gateway the DESIRE in us.. 
IT is embossed by the grace of HUMILITY.. And painted with the colors of TRUST, Keeping mind PEACEFUL & POSITIVE, Leading to a POWERFUL UPTHRUST...! ! !

Its 31st today and i can literally hear the countdown of new year in my nearby rooms and whatsapp and facebook filled with pre new year messages. So I think its time for resolutions now. 2014 has been a particularly bad year; not just on a personal level, but in a whole apocalypse-is-coming sort of way.

 I am sometimes at sixes and sevens where our country is heading. I recently read it in google news that the most searched people on google in INDIA is SUNNY LEONE. What is this bullshit man!!!! In a country which witnessed full change in its politics scenario, where Modi Ji changed the entire out through of nation INDIA... People here don't bother about it but wish to watch sunny leone rather. Major of internet savvy person chose to look at such a person. In this way will our country prosper!!!!

Its shame for us to realise how disgraceful our people can be. Evil is a disease but ignorance makes it epidemic. Rape has now become the news of every newspaper daily. Rapists are lurking everywhere around us and we dont even pay hid to it. Rather people are busy watching episodes of Big Boss which literally has no sense. Its actually time to wake up. We already have enough corrupt officers, policemen, politicians, who are disgracing the name of mankind but now we have slightly more elite and educated class who are using the internet not as means of information but just as to satisfy their body's greed. I am not against onanism or saying onanism is a bad thing. After all it is natural but not at cost of our country. It is completely ridiculous that our educated class are not using internet in a fruitful way. My mind again calls for a wish that people like Bhagat Singh needs to be born again. Taliban walked into school and killed around 130 small children. is this humanity?? there lies a big question mark. By killing innocent children what the hell they want to prove. Does it not pinch your conscience.

 Actually its time for resolutions right!! At first one important resolution to use your internet service in a wise manner. Ya i dont restrict you from having fun but make sure that you follow the recent and trending topics daily and not just read it but implement issues and raise your voices so that your motherland feels proud of YOU. Understand that the lives and experiences of others are unpredictable, just like your own, and learn to empathize with them. Understand that posting one "RIP Peshawar" status means nothing if you post a "having fun wid mah frendz" the next hour.This is complete bullshit. So go ahead and break the internet. Unite the people and raise your voice and speak up for what is write.
"India was a lot more than Sunny Leone and Big Boss this year." :(
Jaago bharatwasio Jaago. its actually hightime........

WANT TO COMPLETE YOUR YEAR!!! TRY ALL THESE

I strongly felt that what i had missed this year... So in these last few days i want to complete all the exercise of this year so that it doesn't seems a burden for me the next year.
1)  Initiate Meaningful Sharing. Far more important than scheduling time to be with family and friends is then making sure that real sharing happens.  I do this most often by saying, “Let’s all share one high-light from this month (or week) so far and one low-light.” to ensure that everyone gets to share about the subjects of their choosing and to help keep the conversation real.

But another idea that’s especially good for groups of people not used to sharing is to put a bunch of meaningful questions in a jar and during dinner announce that tonight we’ll each draw a question to answer.  This extends the meal time and keeps everyone laughing and connecting longer.  I’m keeping a jar on my table all month-long for everyone who comes over!

Questions could include:

• What is one thing that surprised you in a good way, an unexpected gift, that you’re grateful happened?
• What is one thing that you’re really, really, really proud of from this last year… something that matters to you that we can celebrate with you.
• What’s an area of your life (i.e. work, health, hobbies, relationship) that has been really energizing and fulfilling for you. What contributes to that feeling?
• What is one thing happening in your life right now that gives you hope?
• If you had to give the last year a name/chapter title—what might it be and why?
• What are three unique (not the typical “God/Family/Health) things in your life that you’re really grateful for?

A little note on this before I go onto the next idea.  It’s common to feel a little weird doing this and that’s okay.  I just tell myself that making sure everyone leaves feeling seen and heard matters way more to me than whether it will feel normal, comfortable or easy on me, or anyone else.  I used to try to guess whether a certain family member would think it was stupid or whether so-and-so would actually share– I’ve been doing this long enough now to conclude that most people prefer meaningful conversation to small talk, everyone wants to be seen, and that it’s a gift to all of us to have some structure that provides permission and expectation to share.  Courage to you!

2)  Choose One Person You Miss.  Ask yourself who you miss having more regularly in your life and commit to connecting with them this month.  It could be a far-away friend whom you decide you will Skype or call or whatsapp with… no matter what.  It could be someone locally that you just haven’t seen enough of recently whom you call and say, “You are my priority this month.  My month won’t be complete without being with you.. so name the time and place and I’ll come to you… I want to spend time with you.”  Or, it could be an aging family member, someone you’ve drifted apart from, or maybe even somebody where there has been some tension between the two of you.  The point is to just pick one person who pops into your head and find a way to really connect.

The gift of this is that everything else on your list will feel urgent, with a time-stamp to it, but that doesn’t mean they are all things we’d list as “most important”; whereas this connection isn’t urgent at all (the reason you’ve let it slide until now) but you’re claiming it’s importance and choosing to make it urgent.  You’re deciding that it is indeed urgent to make sure that this season has a deeper connection as part of your celebration. Initiate today… and be completely committed to finding the time to catch up and affirm and love on one person you miss.

 3) Pick Presence for One Event.  In an ideal world, we’d be truly present to every single event– decorating ginger-bread houses, the kids choir concert, shopping with your mom, signing the Christmas cards– but the truth is that many “fun” things don’t capture 100% of our attention.  So let’s not claim we can do it all season, but let’s intentionally pick one that matters.  Look at your calendar and say, “For this event… I am going to soak it up!” And then really be as present as you can be: choose to find the magic, watch their faces, add music, dance and laugh, pause and breathe deep, communicate your love, receive everything available to you in those moments.

In this exercise we’re not worrying about updating our social media pages, we’re not hurrying everyone along, we’re not more focused on the logistics than the people, and we’re not quick to temper.  Quite the opposite, we are cherishing as much as we can, holding gratitude, inhaling deeply, and smiling.  When we get to January– we want to look back and remember that we were there at that event.

In choosing to do these two of these three things, we’re not really adding more time to our month– we’re simply infusing the things we’re already doing with meaning.  We are making sure that for as intentional as we are about getting through our list of tasks that we’re also making sure that we’re intentional about the outcome of those tasks.  For what’s the point of filling up the calendar if not to also fill up our hearts?

May the coming year hold meaning for you....
Good Bye

December it is

So, December.

Umm. So its December 9th. Next thing I know I am 19 and growing all alone. No, no girlfriends. I am a crazy person. Friends are nice, but according to world girlfriends are bliss:O... Though i have my best friend in my life. 

Wait. So we were talking about how it is already December. Don't even get me started on how 2014 is ending in mere 7 days.  If you are an Instagram addict like me, you are used to reminders like "OMG ITS ALREADY JULY!" "Hello September" "Its November of 2014, just sayin' ". Umm.

Here is what I am lusting after this month. Four days from now, I'll be back in my 2nd home :D Its so much bigger, so much more beautiful weeeeeeeeee :D The bestest part? I can do whatever i wish except the bloody exams & the boring professors,  i miss every single part of NITS,  beautiful campus, lovely people :) I've been so excited for over 4 months now :D Now that the days to move are countable on fingers, I am fidgety and restless. 

Well the former part of 2k14 was spend in kota which was indeed a unforgettable part of my life... days were so cool there, life was so awesome, only tension of JEE entrance & nothing else. Though i missed JEE by whisker, but i dont regret nowas i am in one of the best college that i could ever dream of ... awesome friends, awesome life, everything is so cool here... 

I am moving in my new house in the coming March... so i started my shopping from now only...

Random banter over. Here, somebody buy me these okay? 

This vintage mirror

Now that I can redo my room (or do my room?!) all over again, I am planning on some vintage mirrors. I have always wanted one of them floral print mirrors on my walls ^_^ If not floral printed, a dainty yet strong framed one may be? 

 Wall hangings - quotes may be 

Something like this! * Though I really wonder how much of this dad is gonna approve :D He won't really be excited about boring holes in newly built walls XD* 

What are you craving for this December? And guesss whattt? This semester I'll be getting over with the last of the labs *fist pumps into air!* *wuhoo!* 

So yea, let me know...

Desperately waiting for new year
“Instead of complaining that the rose bush is full of thorns, be happy the thorn bush has roses.” -Atul

MISSING YOU

  

                             

I always wished I had the kind of bestfriend I could just text a code word to and she’d know exactly how to respond; the friend who would say, “Let’s just hang out this weekend” and I would want nothing more than uninterrupted time with her; the friend who hears when I am sick and shows up with a bowl of soup; the friend who seemingly never tires of listening to you rant about X (insert whatever or whoever you feel like you’re always worried about!!); the friend who includes me in everything; whispers secrets to me that she tells no one else; and the one who just always seems to want to be with me the same amount of time that I want to be with her.

When we’re feeling that little nagging angst of loneliness– it’s for her that we want.  It’s for the fantasy best friend that we know would be the Thelma to our Louise, the laughter to our joke and even the fork to spoon.  She would be the finisher of my sentences, the reader of my minds, and the affirmer of my heart.  Our time together would be effortless, easy, safe, and comfortable.

She walks towards your angry self and she scolds you. You were frustrated and angry, but then her scolding relaxes you. The only friend she is who can bring your anger down. You trust her like you have never been betrayed. Someone whom you like the back of your hand. Someone with whom you want to spend your whole day with and never regretted. Someone with whom you can form a well understood, synchronized partnership above all differences. People stay jealous but friendship is above all jealousy and just jumps over the dumb peoples stupid brain. She understand you better than you ever knew yourself. The perfect hug in the right time and the correct method to stop you from entering the wrong path. Closer than your girlfriend she is(some super lucky people have the same gf & best friend), loves you more than your lover and cares for you almost as your mother. You would hate to see her go, it would pull out all you had, from you. Never will you be able to tolerate it and you are confident that no matter what happens, hoMiw stuff change , circumstances alter, how many fights and arguments you had,  we guys will stick by.  Because that’s what friendship is and your best friend is worth it!! I proudly say that I love my best friend and no one can betray this fact

Friendship is NOT how much we think we like each other; it’s how much of a pattern two people have in practicing the positive behaviors of friendship. For in the world of friendship… horses can become unicorns.  

Best friend stick together till the end and they are like straight that will never bend…..

I admit that I had that kind of friend in my life but due to some unavoidable circumstances she is not with me any more and we can never be together also. We even stopped talking or talk just twice a year( that hurts a lot!!)

But apart from all these I miss her a lot and always wish that she could back in my life….

I know whenever you read this you will call me for sure...

Forgive People

1. This week, in the midst of holiday shopping, travel plans, programs, and parties I feel compelled to bring our attention to what could arguably be the most important action on your to-do list this season: forgiveness.

Forgiveness. 

Take a moment and observe your body as you say the word.  What happens?  Does something tighten? Does your breathing change? Does anything feel heavy?  Does life feel expansive and joyful when you say that word or do you feel dread and constriction?  It’s definitely a loaded word for most people.

We shy away from it because we feel a little guilt about the grudges and judgment we hold.  We want to roll our eyes at people like me who are calling for us to let go of this thing that feels impossible to relinquish.  Living with the ideal in mind and choosing to stay where we are creates such an exhausting dissonance that to close the gap requires us to either forgive or decide it’s not important. So if we can’t picture letting go then our only other obvious choice is to convince ourselves we don’t need to.

Why Forgive?

Why I’m choosing to write about this today is because I want you to make room for what 2015 can hold for you.  And it’s hard to invite more love, connection, peace, creativity, intention, health, and joy into your life when judgement and anger are taking up space, consuming your energy, holding your subconscious hostage.  It’s hard to sincerely say to God, or the Universe, “I want a more abundant life”, when our very actions are showing that we want to sit here and hug this rock of anger a little longer.  It’s hard to show up with love for the new people we meet when the story we play in our heads sings an unforgiving tune of “People disappoint me.  I should be wary.  I need more protection.”

There are many motivations to forgive people, but the one I care about today, for you, is that I want you to have more amazing connection in your life in the year ahead.  I want for you more love, more laughter, more revealing, more play, more touch, more understanding, more empathy, more affirmation– all the things that come with being truly connected to others.  I want that for you so very much.

But you can’t move forward with both arms open wide for more connection if you’re still looking back, trailing a bag of rocks behind you.....
"LIFE BECOMES EASIER WHEN YOU LEARN TO ACCEPT THE APPOLOGY YOU NEVER GOT"
and remember “One of the keys to happiness is a bad memory.” ...
-ATUL