Forever in my Heart.....

I miss your smile,I miss your laugh,I miss you,and that happiness you always had.But one day your smile had faded away,I still remember how I felt that day,Your warmth and comfort that was always near,Your life and joy seamed to disappear.You took your last breath,To end your suffering,If I said it hadn't affected me,I'd just be bluffing.If I could change everything,You know I would,I would change it for you, I know I should.But what if the sadness I had infected everyone else?What if like a disease it spread all about? Maybe I wouldn't do it,It would just be greedy,I'm sorry if I sound so needy,You have to see this is hard for me to get through.When my whole life was you.You left me!You forgot me!Take me with you!They say you're in a better place,and someday I'll be there too.I guess I'll wait for that someday,I can't do this to someone else,Put them through the pain,That truly doesn't have any gain,No matter what they say.I want to scream,I want to cry,I have gotten to low points,Where I just want to die.But the sad tears are gone,Now that the damage is done,And all I can do is smile,I can remember all of the fun,The fun i had when i was with you, sharing every sorrow & grudges,I cry, but they're happy tears,when I'm looking back on all of our memories.
I miss you and will forever do...